Back to me

Starting a fresh isn't neccesarily starting a new. I am still the same me, same woman, same goals, same mind frame, same ideals. I can't be nothing or no one but me. Since I have decided to devulge my thoughts via a brand new spanking journal I felt a need to start off with a post I made on my previous journal. Just a reminder to me to keep it true to what I want out of life and what I want from me.

April 11, 2005
Life can definitely be bitch, but it can also be a blessing. This I've learned within the course of one week. Of course I was already privy to this, but actual experience made it all more personal. A relationship can tumbling down, not because of a lack of support. The bricks to build the foundation had been laid, but I guess i miss the part about mutual support. In essence, I wanted more, he didnt. I'm not going to even fake like i wasn't hurt, I was, deeply. Yet, being the person that I am, I let it go. And yes, I know this was just last week, but I've moved on. I dont believe in staying in a situation where one is not wanted and being friends is really not whats up. I know that I will be wanting more. So I severed all ties, at least for now. In actuality I had signs that he wasn't right for me. I just ignored them. But Life can correct the shit that you won't. It will force you to accept the obvious. And even though I'm hurt and disappointed in what happen, I am strangely relieved. He fit soo many of the qualities that I sought, but what he lacked undermined it all. And I settled. Guess I had to learn the hard way to never ever settle, no matter how attarctive the package comes.
As one door closes, literally, serveral more open. I have been asked out now by three different guys all within the last 4 days. Plus I got news of my acceptance into graduate school. So my future is still on track. Sexy, single, and free...